I… went outside… for a while… to decide.
Have U missed me?
I’ve not been so good, but I’m better now. sorta.
I’ll explain soon-It’s late and I’m desperately trying to hang on to an ordinary schedule believe it or not- so I can drink up as much of the weak sunlight that sometimes creeps into my window (sunlight makes me much, much happier). I just can’t look outside the window, because the rotten snow steals my warmth and I begin to panic-which makes me happy that I canceled the 6 day boat trip I was supposed to take to England once upon a time. I have a feeling that being completely surrounded by water would have the same effect as being completely surrounded by snow and bare trees…
I caught a small relapse just in time before it became a big deal, though I’m not sure we’re totally out of the woods yet, because I still don’t feel 100% like myself.
I owe U an email, believe me I know…and that’s what I’m working on-after I get some much needed sleep…By the way, I’m nearly a vegetarian once again…I’m guilty of chicken a few days ago, but that was it, and afterward I felt as dirty as a drunken one night stand, so there will be no more of that-at least not for a long while (U could say my dirty temptations are few and far between at the moment ;D)
Listen to this…loudly, even if you don’t like the sound- It’s been extremely helpful lately:
Thank U for REALLY knowing me. Seriously.
I won’t slip, I won’t fall, I won’t change…
~ Dark Lucia 13