Maybe I’m not ready to part ways with Mr WordPress just yet. Maybe I’m enjoying this two-timing business…After all, Tumblr DOES look reeeaaallly great now, but I feel sentimental about the Underground too …More than anything, I really want to feel better so I can actually add something worth reading or listening to @ both places. Neurologist isn’t back until Monday, my hand is useless still, and I feel trapped in a really rotten Purgatory right now. (I haven’t emailed anyone-which I’m sure you’ve already realized if you’ve emailed me in the past week or so). Maybe I should do audio emails??

This really, really sucks…I’m TRYING to feel better, I really am. How ’bout sending me some get better soon vibes or something, K?

Tell me something good,

~13

This isn’t a completely easy thing to say to you (actually I’m sorta lying about that and it IS kinda easy), but I feel that I should give you a heads up- just in case things really change in the next few days (or weeks) [and I'm totally certain things will definitely change]. As I’m sure you’ve noticed, I haven’t been coming around so much lately-and NO, that isn’t completely because of you….not really, but it isn’t like you’ve made me want to come around so much anymore either. I mean, we’ve been close for nearly two years, right? (Well, more like a year and a half, though who’s really counting), but I think this relationship has just ran its course. It’s not that I necessarily want to leave you-sometimes I actually don’t mind things like routines and familiarity…and you have watched patiently and listened intently as I pounded out countless drafts about all sorts of things-so you’ve served some really good purposes… well, most of them at least…But you wrongfully gave me grief about audio files-forcing me to rely on third party sites, rather than just handling things like MP3s yourself-and the fact that I can’t do video entries (like I plan on doing in the future) UNLESS I get a ‘paid account’  honestly really pissed me off-so there’s been things that have bothered me for some time now-but I’ve faked a smile and tried accepting these little hangups as part of your conservative personality and probably would have continued to do so if I wouldn’t have stumbled across something new by accident a few nights ago; something that looks as if he may fit my needs a bit better-(actually much better) than you do. He seems much quicker, reliable and he’s not limiting with his themes the way you are. As a matter of fact, he allows for all sorts of experimenting…playing with things-which means that within a few days I may have a yummy pink n’ black theme-like I’ve SO wanted you to give me for so long-rather than always playing it safe (mundane) and keeping things ‘nice’ (boring) and serious (blah) like you’ve always wanted me to. He’s really fun…even sort of adventurous… like a man who isn’t afraid to let a woman dress him and do him up, (even if he ends up looking completely foolish). It’s all definitely more exciting than you-sitting there smirking behind your black and white (with the occasional mild blue and green- gasp!) themes.

I would like to say that this isn’t your fault, (but  I’d sorta be lying if I did, wouldn’t I?) You just refused to move forward-evolve a little like I needed you to-refusing to give me the simple, easy things I’ve so wanted from you.

So, if you’d like to see what I’m probably (almost definitely) leaving you for- have a look-but be sweet, because we’re in the VERY early stages of things and I’ve not had the chance to really sink my teeth and nails into him and mold him into what I want him to be in order to perfectly serve my needs and desires.

So there-I’ve given you the ‘Dear John’…But who knows, maybe he’ll fail me somehow or I’ll become bored (though I doubt it) and I’ll come stomping back to the ‘Underground’ before the first snowfall…After all, you know me (at least you think you do)- I’m a  picky, moooooody woman and it doesn’t take much to make me change my mind or my feelings-so maybe the familiarity you and I share will win out and I’ll leave Mr Tumblr, (despite that he seems oh so capable of handling my pink n’ black desires) and I’ll come back to you…time will tell, right? (But please don’t hold your breath, Honey)

And just think of the positive aspects of our split-I’ll most definitely be happier with the ease of posting via Tumblr, so I’ll be posting random bits lots more-and you’ll still have your kazillion other WordPress bloggers to play with, right?

P.S. For the next few days, I may be a devilish two-timer and play with both of you until he’s better prepared to handle me-I hope you don’t mind, Sweetie…

~13

Lucia13, in Real-Time

P.S. If you’re reading this, maybe U should get a Tumblr account too-even if you only blog ONCE a year or something…U could always use it for tiny, random things instead of blog  entries….Seriously, it’s a bit quiet over there during my settling in phase and I’d love the company…

Time for a real post…I’m working on it….sorta. Had a  late start to the day-but it was a good day, so I can’t complain…I’m off to watch a movie and then I’ll hopefully have time to update.

What am I gonna watch? Hmm, probably something bloody and awesome (bloody awesome!)…Umm, Meat Grinder?? Dead Clowns? Or maybe we’ll do something like Tokyo! instead…WHY am I not in Tokyo right now???  Ok, I’m officially rambling.  Movie first-then more rambling, K?

Be back soon…probably.

~13

Where I am,

~13

Hi Guys, this one’s gonna be super quick-it’s too late and I’m too tired to create anything even semi-sensible. Notice the theme change? If you’ve been around for a while, you’ll remember that this was the original theme(and header photo) from last year. I told U I hated the way the blog looked lately, so I had to change it, and this was an easy quick fix-so it’ll have to do for now. I’ve also added some odds n’ ends photos, so have a look if you want-but there isn’t any new ones yet. There are photos of me when I was a tiny terror though. Ok, I didn’t get around to emails or writing Thursday-I had too many useless necessary things to do instead, (blah!) I’ll hopefully be able to leave another audio entry later today or Saturday.

 Ok, off to probably have really rotten dreams (again) about things like a really mean cat that lives in a giant bird’s nest and waits to pounce when I walk by…Have I mentioned that I really, really hate sleeping??

Nitey-Nite!

Hugs & Tugs

~13

P.S. Glad U liked the last audio entry-it was soooooooooooo nice hearing from U again.

“Happy” Sunday (ughhhh-I loathe Sundays!) Ok, It’s been ages since my last audio, so I’m a bit ‘rusty’, but here ya go (IF U can handle my rambling). I’ve really missed U and I’m REALLY back this time-I PROMISE.

Boop boop a doop,

~13

Hello U,

I’ve been working on an audio entry, but finding the opportune time to record is a bit difficult at the moment. I think it’d be easier to actually tell you what I’ve been going through for the past several months, rather than typing (I’m a lazy typer, remember?) If you’ve emailed me or messaged me while I was hiding away feeling sorry for myself and then actually making the effort to come to terms with certain things, I’ll be emailing you over the weekend. I really appreciate the feedback and I love you bunches and bunches-seriously-you’ve been awesome and it’s really helped kicked my ass back into place, whatever that is.

The weather’s getting dreadful and I’m not dealing with the cold very well-ughh, it’s already in the 40’s-tell me, what happened to autumn? Off to hunt down and viciously slay Jack Frost before the whole winter thing comes any closer…Or maybe I’ll just have a shower and fall sleep instead, who knows.

“La La Love you-don’t mean maybe”,

~ 13

Hi Dolls, I’m home…Are U still here?

An over-extended break-it’s been too long, I know. I’ve been lurking for days, but wasn’t quite ready to say anything; hard to believe that I could be at a loss for words, right?

I’m back (finally)…and once again full of rambles, quips and Lucia-speak. But for now, I’m off to get comfy and catch up on things and then I’ll post again. And I’m leaving U with one of my favorite songs- pay careful attention, lovelies  (and enjoy!).

~13 (reprised)

P.S. The Underground is looking a bit lame these days, we SO need to redecorate!

This film is a joint project of the Multiple Sclerosis International Federation (MSIF) and the Hertie Foundation launched on the first ever World Multiple Sclerosis (MS) Day, 27 May 2009. It aims to capture the attention of people worldwide, motivate them to learn more about MS and become involved in the global MS movement