Yeah, I KNOW.

Time for a real post…I’m working on it….sorta. Had a  late start to the day-but it was a good day, so I can’t complain…I’m off to watch a movie and then I’ll hopefully have time to update.

What am I gonna watch? Hmm, probably something bloody and awesome (bloody awesome!)…Umm, Meat Grinder?? Dead Clowns? Or maybe we’ll do something like Tokyo! instead…WHY am I not in Tokyo right now???  Ok, I’m officially rambling.  Movie first-then more rambling, K?

Be back soon…probably.

~13

The District Sleeps Alone Tonight

Where I am,

~13

Déjà Vu

Hi Guys, this one’s gonna be super quick-it’s too late and I’m too tired to create anything even semi-sensible. Notice the theme change? If you’ve been around for a while, you’ll remember that this was the original theme(and header photo) from last year. I told U I hated the way the blog looked lately, so I had to change it, and this was an easy quick fix-so it’ll have to do for now. I’ve also added some odds n’ ends photos, so have a look if you want-but there isn’t any new ones yet. There are photos of me when I was a tiny terror though. Ok, I didn’t get around to emails or writing Thursday-I had too many useless necessary things to do instead, (blah!) I’ll hopefully be able to leave another audio entry later today or Saturday.

 Ok, off to probably have really rotten dreams (again) about things like a really mean cat that lives in a giant bird’s nest and waits to pounce when I walk by…Have I mentioned that I really, really hate sleeping??

Nitey-Nite!

Hugs & Tugs

~13

P.S. Glad U liked the last audio entry-it was soooooooooooo nice hearing from U again.

Catching up (audio)

“Happy” Sunday (ughhhh-I loathe Sundays!) Ok, It’s been ages since my last audio, so I’m a bit ‘rusty’, but here ya go (IF U can handle my rambling). I’ve really missed U and I’m REALLY back this time-I PROMISE.

Boop boop a doop,

~13

Stumbling Toward Oz

Where’s the Wizard when U need him?

Repeat song of the week

~13

Daddy, what’d you leave behind for me?

Friday Night quickie

I had a really good day today-nothing out of the ordinary, but I took the time to do some things I’ve wanted to do for a while…and it was one of those days when the hours pass slowly…slow enough to get things done, that is.

I’m trying to make this a quickie, because I’m off to a party tomorrow…No, it’s not  the sort of party where I get lost in conversation about the glory of Antonin Artaud- it’s my mother’s 60th birthday party…Once upon a time, I could take  her out to a wonderful dinner and perhaps a fabulous museum exhibit, making sure that everyone in the room knew it was MY mother’s birthday…Now, my presence at her party IS the present-let’s hope it’s enough…I’m no good with this sort of social to-do …I’ll just stay very close to N&D and eye-smile a lot, and hope no one notices me at all…I mean, what DO I say to relatives that I haven’t see in years? Should I discuss my writing projects, or my tiny voice acting endeavors? MS? No, those things won’t do in this sort of situation, so what’s left?  The weather, of course.

Ok, I really have to go to bed-but one more thing-Who’s the woman that inspires me in so many ways??? No, we aren’t talking about Cleopatra, Queen Elizabeth I, nor  Mary Magdalene. The one woman who I can refer to myself as a “fan”of is Elizabeth Taylor, of course! Well, guess what? She’s on Twitter…and yes, it’s the REAL Elizabeth! When I discovered this, I think I may have actually made a squeaking sound-and believe me, very few people make me squeak aloud! So sometimes when I read her tweets, I find myself saying “wow, yeah-you’re absolutely right: Life really is empty without Earrings!”

Ok, so that’s my random geek girl confession for the week…Still, you have no idea how great it is to read something that she  feels like saying.

Now,  what are the odds of convincing her to adopt me??

Ok, I really need to go to sleep…Nitey-Nite!

~13

Time for a word with the Dream King

It’s one of those days when I’d love to say something interesting, but I’m really sleepy and honestly, I’ve felt pretty lousy for the past few days…blame it on a lovely cocktail of sporadic sleeping, (sometimes going 30+ hours without stopping and at other times, sleeping 14+ hours at once and even then  finding it difficult to drag myself out of bed), and of course that not so wonderful little curse: MS… By the way, I finally found the nerve to make an appointment with the neurologists, thanks to a bit of  gentle nudging from my Magnum Opus, (Nile)…looks like someone needs his Mom to stick around for a long while afterall-despite the occasional teenage angst (his, not mine-mine isn’t ’occasional’)

So, I’m really focusing on facing things…facing that this is real,(which became a kazillion times more real when I was on the phone making the appointment) and accepting what I can and can not change in my world. I’ll be going bright and early (10 a.m.- ugh!) on Friday, July 3 to see Dr. A., so wish me good luck, because this is not something I’m at all looking forward to…But unlike my last trip to the neuro 3 years or so ago, I’ll be better prepared and now that I know for sure what we’re dealing with, things will be much more focused, and I’ll find out what I can do to slow the MonSter down and spend more time living, rather than merely existing. And hopefully living means getting on with the countless projects that are currently collecting dust.

I’ve not done emails in days and days, which I plan to do tomorrow-so if it’s my turn, you’ll be hearing from me soon. Hopefully tonight, I’ll actually get real sleep and not spend my night smashing zombie skulls, while trying really hard to not to be bitten by one…sounds like a pretty average video game, I know-but it makes for really, really bad dreams, believe me. Maybe I need to have a word with the Dream King or something?

Ok, I thought I’d leave a new picture, and I’ll spare you most of my opinions on what I think of it-but it’s brand new, so as U can see, I’m still alive-just feeling totally exhausted right now and so lazily ‘unglam’…and the picture quality is dreadful, I realize-though I’m not really sure how that happened…anyway, it was actually ‘Son-approved’, which says leaps and bounds, and I’m quite sure he’s happy that it isn’t ‘too provocative’, which is something he recently accused his Mom of being (Me? Provocative?) So here ya go- a kind, gentle, kid-friendly, Sweet, Non-Provocative Lucia…ugh!

  

Hugs & all that yummy stuff,

~13

  

 

                        

                         ”Slacker-girl 13″

           ….At least the smile’s real this time…

“4U”

This shit right here is 4 U. All your faces I can see- You all think it’s about me- I’m about to break… Is this my fate? Am I still damned to a life, Of misery and hate? You will never know What I’ve done  4 U. What you all..Put Me through; I do it for you. I could (have), Never (lived), If it wasn’t… 4U.

 

Happy Saturday.

~13

“…And her jokes attract the ‘lucky bad type’…”

Hello U,

‘Member me? I’ve been stranded for the past week without internet. Who would’ve known that a DVD burner could stop a computer, two computers in fact, from connecting to a wireless network? Anyway, the problem’s been solved, and I now have a new old pc-with nearly 3 times as much hard drive space, so I’m a happy little pirate once again. I really want to do an audio, but I have a million things to download and set up, so hopefully by tomorrow, I’ll be able to vocally answer some  questions & thank U for some really sweet comments, like this one:

So, there’s been nothing from Dark Lucia for a while now. On Wednesday, I found myself drinking caffeinated coffee on the way to work again rather than listening to your voice or your current “repeat” song to get the blood pumping. If this keeps up I’ll either have to call in sick or switch to the hard stuff to make it through the morning. Come back “13″!  (Josef)

That’s very cool to hear. I’m here again, but call in sick anyway-unless you have a six figure income or something…and in that case, share the wealth with us less than six digit starving artists, or help me find a way to get paid for doing whatever it is I do that gets the blood pumping…Once upon the time, the Army wanted me to be a DJ (seriously), but I couldn’t fake morale boosting then nearly as well as I can now…I still think an early morning radio show would be really sweet, sometimes-as long as I didn’t have to wake up early…Perhaps it could be an end of my night gig or prerecorded?

Anyway, here’s the song that’s been stuck in my head since yesterday morning,-when I really wanted to hear it, but had NO idea where the mp3 was hiding in our MP3 discs, and honestly I was a bit too chicken to get out of bed and come looking for it, but that’s a long story, so I’ll spare U the details for now. Have a listen and if you haven’t heard it yet, then perhaps it’s because it’s older than some of you are…But it’s still brilliant, and the lyrics are Oh So Appealing, for some reason…or another.

I’ve missed U.

 

Smile, seriously-try it, U might really like it!

BIG Hugs and Sugary Sweet kisses…or something (?)

~13

 

Passion of Lovers (Bauhaus)

She had nut-painted arms
that were hers to keep,
and in her fear,
She sought cracked pleasures.
the passion of lovers is for death, said she
Licked her lips,
and turned to feather.

And as I watched from underneath,
I came aware of all that she keep
the little foxes, so safe and sound
they were not dead,
they’d gone to ground.

the passion of lovers is for death, said she
the passion of lovers is for death

She breaks her heart
Just a little too much
And her jokes attract the lucky bad type
As she dips and wails,
And slips her banshee smile,
She gets the bigger of the better to the letter

the passion of lovers is for death said she
the passion of lovers is for death